7 hours and I will be on the plane heading to Jersey!! I am beyond excited! I have not slept for the past three nights but I think I will finally get a couple hours, I am starting to get tired!!!
My Friend, I have no idea what this trip will hold, what difficulties I face nor all the Joys I am about to experience, but I know Your hand is guiding it all. Please help me to make the best of everything and teach me. Help me to be open and listen with my heart. Please help me learn how to meditate and pray.
This is going to be crazy, seven whole weeks… wow. I have a lot to learn. Please give me the strength and the energy to complete all my tasks to 110%. I know I am not perfect but please help me to avoid any possible errors. Help me to bring You to the kids I will be with everyday and let me be open enough for them to bring You to me.
Thank you my Friend for this opportunity, You know I need this. What I learn in these next couple of months please help me to carry with me everyday, even while at college. Please don’t let me falter. I trust in You, without reserve. I am Yours, tear me down and build me up. Use me so I may be your pumpkin, Your Hands and Your Feet.
I’m ready and willing.
“BE STRONG IN THE LORD. NEVER GIVE UP HOPE. YOUR GONNA DO GREAT THINGS, I ALREADY KNOW. GOD HAS HIS HAND ON YOU SO DON’T LIVE LIFE IN FEAR. FORGIVE AND FORGET BUT DON’T FORGET WHY YOUR HERE. TAKE YOUR TIME TO PRAY AND THANK GOD FOR EACH DAY. HIS LOVE WILL FIND A WAY. . . . LAST TIME WE SPOKE YOU SAID YOU WERE HURTING AND I FELT YOUR PAIN IN MY HEART. I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT I KEEP ON PRAYING LOVE WILL FIND YOU WHERE YOU ARE.”
-Side Walk Prophets: These are the Words I Would Say.
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Today is the day my grandma died two years ago on a rainy night. Its raining right now but I know when the sun rises its going to be glorious. I still really miss you and love you Grandma, you better be celebrating your afterlife birth date!!
Lately I started reading again which I haven’t done in two years. The other day I baked which I haven’t done a whole lot of since my grandma hasn’t been around. My toast still won’t turn out anywhere near as good as hers, I don’t know what her secret is! I have finally let go for the most part. I still really miss my grandma’s laugh and her warm welcome’s. I miss talking to her and baking with her. I miss watching Golden Girls and Murder, She Wrote with her. I turned on Golden Girls last week and was cracking up; there was a day when I turned it on and they were showing all the episodes my grandma and I watched the last time we were together, it was bitter sweet.
I know you are in good hands now, please watch over us and keep our family together, it’s not the same. I love you and still wish more than anything I could give you that hug I never did, but one day. Separated by lifetimes, but forever in my heart.
